I'm the F to the E-R: August 2009

Monday, August 31, 2009

I LOVE YOU NICHKHUN! LOL

i've been lazy to update my blog because of him xD
i got addicted on watching his videos on youtube like crazy!

Nichkhun ♥ is the hawtest, cutest, humorous, adorable-est, smartest, most-talented guy you can find on earth!

ahaha XD goshh.. i'm gonna be crazy over him! if i keep talking bout him

and and anddd!

I BLAME ESTEE FOR INFLUENCING ME! LOL
DIEEEEE ESTEE! DIEEE!

xoxo.
FER

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

B.O.R.E.D

I'm darn bored now

I have to admit that this is the boring-est holiday i've ever had in my past 15 years.

Trial ended.. Pmr's approaching.
I'm suppose to study..

but why am i still here blogging ?

It's sooo difficult for me to take out a book and read
whyy ?

Everytime i started reading a book, i end up falling asleep on it

sighhh..

How i wishh.. !
I'm naturally smart !
Without reading books nor going to school =X

swtswtswtswtswtswtswtswtswtswtswtswtswtswtswtswtswtswtswtswtswtswtswtswtswtswtswtswtswt

Someone please save me and get me outta this house!
i don't wish to spend my holidays like this =X

makes me feel soo lifeless and empty *pfft!*

blablabla

anyone going to genting this friday ?
if you are.. tell me =)

xoxo.
FER

Hellooo! (:

omggg..
empty promises i made. telling people proudly that i was gonna update my blog. haha.. i'm sorry =X i have really bad mood swings =X

well, i always wanted to update my blog, but everytime.. once i wanted to type the first word.. everything disappeared in my mind.

I guess i still haven't get my blogging mood back.

hope it comes back soon

xoxo.
FER

Thursday, August 20, 2009

To Mr.Tan

i finally got my blogging inspiration back.
Thanks To Cutie Tan Chee Nien
and f.y.i cutie's his new christian name xD
ahahaha XD

my blog is updated
20.8.2009
11.52pm
Thursday

xoxo.
FER

Monday, August 17, 2009

17.8.2009

Helloo Ding Dongs! (:

Yess i know i knoww.. My blog is practically dead cause of my laziness. Hahaha. My friends had been nagging me day and night to update my blog.. So here i am, updating my blog. =)

Some of you knew that i was sick right? Cough, fever (38.7degree celcius), flu and sore throat. Which made my voice damn sexy HAHA XD
Well, I went consulted a doctor yesterday at Gleneagles, and the doctor said it was just an bacterial infection. Nothing big to worry bout. Haha.. Anyways! I waited 3 freakin hours just to see a doctor for likee... less than 10 minutes! LOL. waited like maddd! Hmm... saw lots of little children really ill. So kelian >.<

you seeee! O.O
minimum 2 hours, i was like "wtf? go clinic please" .___.

The doctor wrote a letter and gave me an MC
I didn't go to school today so my driver sent my letter and mc to school so that mr logan could arrange a trial replacement for me.
hahaha.. I'm resting at home while the others are sitting for their PMR trial =P

anf FYI. I was wearing my pyjamas to the hospital yesterday xD

and last but not least !
i got my medicines
haha.. looks pretty isn't it ? xD

xoxo.
FER

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

Helloo dear readers! (:

it's been awhile since i last blogged.
life had been really complicating for the past few days, but everything is fine now.
special thanks to my darling friends. ♥

.I'm addicted to FFS once again. Thanks to Mr.Chyang.
.Any of you play FFS please buy me ! LOL help me raise my value

I'll blog when i have the mood too =D

It's way past my bed time noww.
Nights!

xoxo.
FER

Thursday, August 6, 2009

Strong - Jordyn Taylor

This lyric means so much ♥
it explains how im feeling now

Bet you thought that i'd be broken.
Mascara streakin' down my cheek.
Devastated, out the door way;
In a daze, a state of disbelief.
I bet you liked that; seeing me get mad.
But, baby i wont satisfy your need.
I've already been there, done that.
I'll be fine, even if you leave.

i dont need you anymore;
and don't you know,

That You, were the one that made me strong;
you made me stand up on my own,
with every cruel intention, you helped me find my
independence.
yeah it's all because of you,
that i have the strength i do,
to turn my pain to passion, instead of crashin'.
Boy i'm thankin' you.
Boy i'm thankin you.

Thinking back on how you changed me,
everytime, you tried to put me down.
even though you really hurt me,
underneath, myself is what i found.
so take a look inside these eyes now,
and say the things you want to say to me.
cuz i've already spread my wings out;
and your the one, the one who set me free.

i dont need you anymore
and don't you know,

That you were the one that made me strong,
you made me stand up on my own
with every cruel intention you helped me find my
independence
yeah it's all because of you
that i have the strength i do
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to turn my pain to passion instead of crashin'
Boy im thanking you,

For all the tears i cried
for all the sacrafice
for all the drama
'cuz in the end it made me stronger
so trust me i'll be fine
baby i'll survive
without you, in my life, but i want you to know

that you
were the one that broke my heart
but i won't fall apart
no.. im so moving on
cuz babyyy

You were the one that made me strong,
you made me stand up on my own
with every cruel intention you helped me find my
independence
yeah it's all because of you
that i have the strength i do
to turn my pain to passion instead of crashing

Boy i'm thanking you,
one that made me strong
Lalalalalaaa ohhh
Boy i'm thankin you
one that made me strong
Lalalalalaaa ohhh
Boy I'm thanking you
Lalalalalaaa ohhh
(crying)

Hearts ♥

Found another meaningful lyrics from samm's blog

i damn damn love the lyric..
the lyric is soo meaningful =)

reminded me of someone

4Tune - Just Let It Go.

Never could imagine life without you,
From the moment you walked into my world
Never knew how long a loving flame would burn,
But loving you has forced me to learn...

That we can't change the way we feel inside
And every try at love never turns out right
We both know,
It's better if we just let it go..

So lets have,
One last kiss,
One last touch,
One last tender moment between us..
One last dance to our very first song,
While pretending there's nothing wrong
Lets lay here for a while,
And cherish every moment we're in denial
We both know its better it we just let it go

Everytime I try to take a stand at all
I see your face again and I fall
In the middle of the night there's a scent of a rose
The smell of your perfume I suppose

But we can't change the way we feel inside
And every try at love never turns out right
We both know,
It's better it we just let it go..

So lets have,
One last kiss,
One last touch,
One last tender moment between us..
One last dance to our very first song,
While pretending there's nothing wrong
Lets lay here for a while,
And cherish every moment we're in denial
We both know its better it we just let it go

Maybe if we met each other under a different sky,
Maybe then things would be
much better between you and I..
We can always hold on to this
one special thing we share
But it would be to much for us to bare

So lets have,
One last kiss,
One last touch,
One last tender moment between us..
One last dance, to our very first song,
While pretending there's nothing wrong
Lets lay here for a while,
And cherish every moment we're in denial..
We both know its better if we just let it go,
Let it go,
Let it go...

xoxo.
FER

6.8.2009 . 100 truths .

Tagged by Yin

Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 100 Truths about you.
At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged.
You have to tag the person who tagged you.

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. last beverage = cold water
2. last phone call = Alvin
3. last text message = Judson
4. last song you listened to = I knew i love you - Savage Garden
5. last time you cried = Yesterday. I was so stupid to do so. FYI, i'm not a easy crier =(

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. dated someone twice = don't think so ?
7. been cheated on = I don't think so too
8. kissed someone & regretted it = yess
9. lost someone special = yess
10. been depressed = yeaps
11. been drunk and threw up = Drunk? yes. Threw up? no

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
12. Pink
13. Yellow
14. Baby Blue

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend = Yeahh. A lot of them =)
16. Fallen out of love = er.. yes?
17. Laughed until you cried = haha. yea
18. Met someone who changed you = yess.. =X
19. Found out who your true friends were = yeaps! my darlings <3
20. Found out someone was talking about you = yeaps
21. Kissed anyone on your FB friend's list = yess haha xD

GENERAL:
22. How many people on your FB friends list do you know in real life = 70% =)
24. Do you have any pets = no, but gonna get one soon
25. Do you want to change your name = noo. cause my name has a meaning to my mummy =)
26. What did you do for your last birthday = Party!! Dinner and Dinnerr! =D
27. What time did you wake up today = 10.30am. was absent from school =)
28. What were you doing at midnight last night = was talking on the phone
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for = Driveeee Legally !!
30. Last time you saw your Mother = Erm.. few days ?
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life = My fatness! i wanna be slim ! LOL
32. What are you listening to right now = this i promise you - n'sync
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom = yess.. my doll. tom =X
34. What's getting on your nerves right now = him
35. Most visited webpage = Facebook and Blogspots
36. Where you want to be right now = Pavilion
37. Nicknames = Fer, Fei, Feli, Ferb, Fergalicious, Ferbulous, and lots lots more =X
38. Relationship Status = Single but unavaible =)
39. Zodiac sign = Pisces
40. Male or female? = Female
41. Elementary? = Lai Meng and Sri Garden
42. Middle school = Sri Garden
43.Hair colour = Dark and abit light brown at the end and it's my natural hair =X i don't go for dyes
44. Long or short = Long.
46. Height = I'm 165cm and im proud of it! XD
47. Do you have a crush on so = yess
48.What do you like about yourself = everything! XD hahaha.. self obsessed
49. Piercings = ears
50. Tattoos = nahh. hate it =X
51. Righty or lefty= righty! teeehee!

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery = nope
53. First piercing = ears
54. First best friend = Adele
55. First kiss = hmmm?
56. First vacation = S'pore
57. First crush = my ex-neighbour xD some japanese dude haha

RIGHT NOW:
59. Eating = nothing
60.Drinking = plain water
61. I'm about to = Cry! Bored weyy ! ._.
62. Listening to = Better Man - Robbie Williams
63. Waiting for = Dinner! HAHA

YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids? = yess. two please xD
65. Get married =yes.. i do!
66. Career = A successful Lawyer / Housewife

WHICH IS BETTER
67. Lips or eyes = lips
68. Hugs or kisses = kisses
69. Shorter or taller= TALLER!
70. Older or Younger = Older
71. Romantic or spontaneous = Romantic
72. Nice stomach or nice arms = Arms! =D
73. Sensitive or loud = Sensitive~
74. Hook-up or relationship = Relationship!
75. Trouble maker or hesitant = hesitant :)

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger = No! LOL
77. Drank hard liquor = yes haha
78. Lost glasses/contacts = yess =X
79. Sex on first date = whaaaa? o.o
80. Broken someone's heart = yess.. and im sorry =X
81. Had your own heart broken = YES
82. Been arrested = Nope
83. Turned someone down = Yes
84. Cried when someone died = No.. cause i was still young
85. Fallen for a friend? = yess

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself = sometimes
87. Miracles = not always
88. Love at first sight = no
89. Heaven = 50% 50%
90. Santa Claus = no haha
91. Kiss on the first date = no.. play hard to get it sucker! =P
92. Angels = and tooth fairies! XD

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
93. Had more than one bf/gf?= Yea
95.Did you sing today? = Yes
96. Ever cheated on somebody? = yess =X
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go, and why? = ermm... i wanna be a baby =X
98. Are you afraid of falling in love with somebody else? = YESSS!
100. Posting this as 100 truths? = yes

ermm some of the numbers are not in orders. LOL

Human i tag:

anyone who is free to do this i tagged =)

1.8.2009

Went to Reb Box Plus last Saturday.. it was a super-duper boring day, till i kept kacau-ing my aunty to bring me for karaoke till she says okayy. xD so called Howard and Suki to meet us there.. We (me estee and my aunt) were actually late.. booked a 9pm room and we reached there at 10. ahaha. Girls~

My nigga lips ! XD

it's been a long time since i last used this bag
it was a chritmas present from aunty from england

my 1st ralph lauren =)

CCB!
haha
get what i mean ?

my white wine ~ =)

I think most of you peoples might know who is he..
He's Suzuki btw..
my mixed friend
hahaha xD

"all i wanna do is find a way back into loveee~"

li shan said that suki looks like a puppy here! XD
HAHA

his eyes are as big as mine =P

and not anymore! haha

HAHA

cakee!
me loveee~

suki , me, my aunt, estee, and howard

me and suki camwhored alot that night =X

BANG! =D

my fav picture! =)

and yeahh..
i dared my aunt to bring this back home from reb box XD
and she really did
HAHA

xoxo.
FER

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

since you want it that way..
i respect your decision

maybe it really is time for me to let go ?

i didn't know that you would hurt me that deeply after all these.

but..

i'll wait