Frustrating moments

I don't really know how to express my feelings towards you guys, but yeahh.. I have tons of sadness stuck on my mind. I tried to not think about you, but i always failed. Why ? Why did you made me fall for you in the first place? How i wish everything didn't start from the 1st time we met. How i wish we were still normal friends. Do you know that I've been waiting for you the whole day ? I was so looking forward to receive your text this morning, but ended up feeling disappointed when i didn't saw any message on my phones screen. You used to text me every morning, I was happy back then. Replying it with a smile on my face early in the morning.

You didn't reply my last message yesterday, without telling me any reason. Do you know that i was worried? Worried of what would've happen to you ? How i wished you would understand how I'm feeling now.

The feeling I'm having now is really making me suffer. My heart feels like it's sinking. I don't wanna wait no more.. I wanna end this as soon as possible.

And please. Don't feel sorry. You've did nothing wrong.


xoxo.
FER

"Sorry Anyway"
Tata Young

I guess I didn't read the sign at all
You call me darling
Say that you're in love
But it doesn't feel like you mean it
Although I've never been in love before
I'm sure it must be so much more than this
Cause I've never been so unhappy

Everything's wrong and backwards
Upside down
Ahh.. I'm letting you touch me but I'm cold inside
This ain't right

[Chorus]
Sorry, I'm sorry that it's over now
We stand alone and we know it's gone,
Can't live without love
It's hard for me to know that you'll be sorry
And I don't wanna see you cry
No matter what I say, no matter what I do, you'll
Be sorry anyway

I still remember how I felt that night
The stars where out and made it all seem right
I guess I fooled myself into falling
Without a shadow of a doubt
I looked straight into his eyes
And that was the night
And I really do miss that feeling

Everything's wrong and backwards
Upside down
Ahh.. I'm letting you touch me but I'm cold inside
This ain't right

[Chorus]

I don't know how to be strong when it's over
Can't face the lonely hour
It feels so wrong but it's right to tell you now
Oh I don't know why, I just wanna to cry
Oh why, It's time to let go but I want you to know I'm

[Chorus]


the lyrics exactly explains my feelings =)


xoxo.
FER

1.7.2009

IT'S JULY PEOPLEE!
THE MONTH OF SALES!
bwahahahahaha! XD

someone gave me Patchi chocolates that morning XD
he/she said "choose.."
then i was so greedy till i took 5 =P

i finally took all my books to school !
gotta be hardworking ! =D

look closer..
i wrote sejarah notes on my table XD
cause teacher wanted to ask us questions..
if nott.. she'll pull our sideburns

so far, i've never kena before lahh..
and wished that i never ever will =X

cca was fun as usual..
skipped netball
sat down and chat with Jeslyn
we gossiped! haha alot XD
well, not exactly gossiping lahh..
just sharing opinions only..
=P

hmm...
jeslyn, don't feel left out kayy ?
if you do.. you always have me =)
haha and your lao gong too
XD

never ever feel left out (:
cause friends are all around you..
just go mix around with random peoples

*smiles*

I love this picture..
and idk why too! =X

my sexay darling XD

I FINALLY DONE MY ART PROJECT!
haha XD
i'm god damnn happy ! =D

candid shot !

patrick ! don't you ever dare to wear my jacket again i tell you !
RAWRRR!!

he curi-curi wore my jacket when i went to toilet
grr...

thank god i got proof ! XD
someone which im not sure who took his picture with my phone
haha

hmm...
lunch timee, went to the same place..
was feeling kinda moody..
hoping that you would reply my message.

during english period..

my sweet heart jon wrote this xD

honeyyy~
<3

ahaha XD

xoxo.
FER

"Call Him Mine"
Tata Young

I can call him mine

It was only a matter of time
Before I got tired of your ways
I tried to make you fire,
But you were only ice
And you didn't seem to wanna change

So then I looked at someone new
And he was looking back at me too
Saw that I was hurt
Knew just what to say
Knew just how to push the pain away

You know I need stability
And you know you can't give it to me

[Chorus]
My sun may never rise the way it did with you,
And he may never kiss me the way that you'd do
But at least he makes me feel like a part of his life
At least he doesn't make me cry
I know I can call him mine

Though when I call him on the phone
I never feel butterflies
I know that I can trust
He'll always give me love
And I know mine will grow for him in time

He tells me that I'm beautiful
And I never ever heard that from you
He doesn't cause me pain
Tears falling like the rain
And though I'm still in love with you
You know I need stability

[Chorus]

It wasn't easy letting go but I know that I had to think of the long run and say goodbye
And find someone who appreciates me even though even though.....

My sun may never rise the way it did with you
And he may never ever kiss me the way that you'd do, that you'd do...

[Chorus]

The sun may never rise again like it did with you
And he may never ever kiss me the way you'd do
But at least he makes me feel like I'm a part of his life
He doesn't make me cry
Doesn't make me cry
He doesn't make me cry
I know I can call him mine


i so so soooo love the songs~
the lyrics sometimes reminds me of my life


xoxo.
FER

30.6.2009

you guys better stop squeezing my cute lil bun!

goshh.. everyone who sees this lil bun will surely squeeze it one.
it's getting darker and darker (pity my lil bun).. so, people with dirty fingers.. pleasee.. stop squeezing it. =X

Adib's shoe is made of metal.
it's really heavy.

he lost his lacoste school shoes at home
ahaha

i was bored in class.
started writing an "I Love You" then drew a love, then drew and wrote more on the paper =X
i was too free during BM period haha

memories =)

during lunch time, we went to IT lab to do our history project..
i meant.. sha did the project XD
not us.. me and darling daphne was youtube-ing
haha
ashley tisdale and taylor swift-ing!

oh yeahh.. darling..
where are the albums ?!
.___.

me and junn went out 1st
cause we wanted to go up
bell rang quite long ago and we were still fooling around there..
i started taking my phone out and take pictures of baby cause she was in the IT lab..
we were waving to each and and showing "saranghae" signs ! XD

i looked like a ghost
hahaha xD

i'm TALL ! =D

i love you darling =)

baby, honey, annyeong, darling


well, that was our day =)

xoxo.
FER

29.6.2009

thanks eng zyan =X

haha.
played badminton, i hurt my elbow and my hand..
aww.. pity pity mee..

was playing badminton while sitting down
ahaha. quite fun weyy! =D
but once u fell on the floor. urghh.. >.<
you don't wanna knoww how it feels.

i punched patrick's back.
and my fist gotten all red.
=X

he's Ginormica ! =D


xoxo.
FER

this post is specially for you. (:

HAPPY sexy 19 BIRTHDAY ALVIN LIM! =D

i was sweet enough to book you first at 11.55pm last night
hahaha. FEEL PROUD KAYY ?! XD
well, i called this guy yesterday at 11.55pm
we've been chatting on the phone for like.. 50 minutes?
i was the first to wish him on his birthday. 1st of June! =D
hahaa.. he has been begging me to sing a birthday song for him XD
i didn't want to at first, cause i had a lil sore throat. BUT I STILL SANG IT TO HIM! LOL
see! i'm soooo sweet right?! =P
i wanna be the first and the last to wish him =X
haha..

anyways, i booked him today again.. gonna call him at 11.55pm. Again.
=D hope this time we wont talk so long-lah . haha

hmm...

msg to alvin :
Wish you a very Happy 18 Birthday..
How i wish i could donate my 10kg to you
I owe you your birthday present first-lah. =P
Wished that you're getting hawter and hawter every day XD

here's another birthday song for youu =)

Happy Birthday to youu...
Happy Birthday to youuu...
Happy Birthday to Alvinn...
Happy Birthday to youuuu...

xoxo.
FER